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Whistler
is a trio from Britain. Their self-titled album has recently
been released by Wiiija
in the United Kingdom, and Beggars Banquet in the United States.
The band has a spare sound, reminiscent of Tracey Thorn's
A Distant Shore, or the Young Marble Giants' Alison
Statton, employing the often forgotten idea that a quiet song
can be more affecting than one that is loud. There is no need
to shout when speaking quietly will accomplish the same goal.
"Every time I wound your pride, are you going to fake
a suicide?"
"You're running out of games to play and I've played
all of mine"
There is certain ease to death--dying is simple, but living
through requires more courage. Or those that stay alive are
just miserable enough not to give it all up. Jonathan knew
this, but he continued to play his games in love. An odd phone
call here, a threat there--he used emotions to manipulate
the heartstrings of his lovers. Until they caught on and called
his bluff: what he said was as empty as a story without a
plot. He thought, if love is a game, I must win at all price.
But he had to remind himself that after every break-up, harsh
word, and threat. It was a tedious ritual, and no one ever
wanted to play his game with him very long. His friends told
him that there was little difference winning and losing in
love, or that games as this were not a simple matter. You're
young, they said, wait until you find the one that plays better
than you yourself. Jonathan probably already knew that too,
but he continued his warpath. He was heading for a fall, hidden
in the face of everyone he passed on the street.
"You're tragic, yes I know, you think it's part of
the job though"
Timothy had accepted sadness as part of his life. He could
not recall when that event happened--a letter awarding sadness
for life had never been received, if one sent at all. The
curtains were kept closed, and days were spent in bed, somewhere
between sleeping and waking. He explanations to his friends
always fell short, ending with "it's just... I don't
know". His friends replied that he was too old for teenage
angst any longer. Timothy thought he was just too young to
take on adult angst. Emily told him that she fancied him that
one afternoon. She had to repeat her declaration before he
showed any sign of comprehension. "Aren't you going to
say anything?," she asked. "I'm not sure this involves
me--it is your heart," he muttered. "This certainly
does involve you! This little act you have isn't gaining you
any friends." He turned his head to look at her: "It
isn't an act--it is just the way things are." Emily stood
and said, "You are tragic, and it isn't becoming."
He could only answer with "it's just.... I don't know."
"It isn't hard to do sorrow or say 'I love you'"
"I only came to ask you how you're getting on because
we hadn't spoken for so long"</i><p>
Patrick was smoking his last cigarette of the day secretly
on the patio behind his parents' house. He had gone out to
call the cat inside for the night. The cat sat on the bench
with her paws dangling over the edge after he had come outside.
She stared at him with as much a smile as a cat can smile
as he kept calling her name to justify his being outside.
He exhaled looking at the stars in the sky; the smoke curled
its way through the light from the house and the branches
overhead. There were many ghosts residing at the house that
were visible in his cigarette smoke; Patrick saw, and in turn,
considered each of them. The ghosts wished to talk about the
past as that was all they had to do--replay life's tragedies.
But Patrick had an interest in the future. He thought, "Life
is rather short, and it isn't hard to do sorrow. Maybe if
I had another life to spare, I could worry about the sadder
side of things. I am actually happy for once in my life, and
the forecast is loveliness and plain sailing." Patrick
put out his cigarette on the cold patio stone. He walked up
the steps two at a time, trailed by the cat, to the back door.
He was in a hurry as he wanted to get inside and write everything
down before he had forgotten.
"Look at me I'm smiling at you, what is there to fear?"
| Matthew
Patrick, May 1999 |
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