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"Falling
in love just to see what that does"
Dear Anna,
I saw him again today--I believe I wrote about him before
in another letter. He was searching for books by Wilde and
Vidal. His eyes are quite gorgeous--a deep blue color. I picked
up some book or other just to 'linger' casually. It slipped
from my hand because he (literally) made me lose my senses.
But then he picked it up for me--he said I had good taste.
The book was by Zola unfortunately. That was my chance so
I screwed whatever courage I had left and asked if he wanted
to go for coffee. He said yes. As we chatted--and I thought
my heart would explode from nervousness or caffeine--he mentioned
his girlfriend. Why do I fall for the ones I can't get? Still
smarting. Love is awful, life is horrible, I am laying down.
Love and kisses,
Thomas
"Walking in circles hoping to find him but it just don't
matter to you"
Anna,
I am in love again today. His name is William. I can't recall
when we met first. Mutual friends kept introducing us; we
started chatting about common music tastes (ie. 'those jangly
guitars' as you called them). You must think I am fascinated
with someone new every week. If it were that easy! I am a
romantic--hopeless, starstruck, etc. Dinner and a movie for
us Friday evening. How is your arts course? Still drawing
the seashore? If it didn't pain you to hear the word, I might
call you a romantic also.
All the best,
Thomas
"Make him write again. Make him write the words. Spell
it out this time. Careful not to disturb"
Dear Anna,
The plans for Friday evening didn't happen--a pipe burst somewhere
in the city and the buses weren't running. So we made a rain
plan for the next afternoon (there was no rain). William brought
food for a late lunch and we found a spot by the side of the
museum. There was a first kiss. My line was that all the kissing
was for practice--we practiced a while. When we gathered our
things to go we realized that people in the museum could see
out and consequently see us! The thought was as frightening
as exhilarating. William said perhaps we would get on the
news for being rude. I didn't see anything on the tv that
evening. Forecast is loveliness.
Your fabulous hopplite,
Thomas
"Of all the things he's taking his time to breathe"
Dear Anna,
Apologies from the bottom of my big heart for not writing
back sooner. I suppose you can guess the reason is William.
One day when you fall in love, and it will happen, you will
understand. I am not sure what else to write. Is this a happy
ending? Happy is true, but not ending--I think William and
I will be together for a long time. One day you will be writing
this same letter to someone. You can resist love as much as
possible, but it will hide behind the corner and follow you
home one night (not literally). Drawing nude men just isn't
the same. Love is messier, yet far more rewarding.
Love all around,
Thomas
"Thinking: he only ever gave me kisses"
After singles on the Matinee,
the Tweekitten, and the Library
record labels, Sweet William has released the World of
Books mini-album on Shelflife.
The band has been compared to the Field Mice, the Orchids,
and the Smiths. And like those bands, longing and that unrequited
something wander through Sweet William's songs. They offer
something for the longing; others have felt that way too.
Visit Sweet William at Pleasurecraft.
Matthew
Patrick, May 1999
Photography by M Patrick |
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